schmoopie the destroyer

Ingredients

1 cup plain all-purpose white flour
1 tsp. baking powder
1/2 tsp. salt
2 Tbsp. Light Mayonnaise
1/2 cup skim or 1% milk


Directions

If using self-rising flour omit the salt and baking powder. Soft wheat flour makes the best biscuits.
Preheat oven to 375°.
Spray a 6 cup muffin tin with nonstick spray.
Combine all ingredients. Stir until smooth.
Divide evenly between the 6 muffin cups.
Bake at 375°until golden brown.
Makes 6 servings.

Number of Servings: 6

From now on, my posts are going to be friends only.

If you're just curious, you can check out my previous posts which chronicle a 10-lb loss over about 3 months. Or you can comment to be added.

6th appointment on tuesday. She worked on my lower back and glutes. After she was done she had me stand up straight and fixed my posture. When I try to stand up straight I always push my shoulders back but in doing so also push my stomach out. I have to make sure that my butt stays 'tucked under' and my abs are engaged. When she had me standing in this position I looked sidelong into the mirror and OMG I looked like a different person. If I didn't see my head attached to the body I wouldn't think it was me, my torso looked long and lean (also due to the fact that I was engaging my abs, i.e. sucking in) but STILL.

Chest up, Butt tucked, Abs engaged!

I can't believe the difference the rolfing is making. On Tuesday I went for my 5th appointment and she worked on my rectus abdominus. I have so much more flexibility and it's easier to stand up straight. I used to squirm around and feel uncomfortable when sitting with a straight back and now I can sit with a long torso totally comfortably. I went to bikram this morning and feel awesome. No back pain at all since Tuesday!

Browsing around in sparkpeople among the'emotional eating' forums I found this author's spark team for sugar addicts. I wouldn't consider myself a sugar addict, at least compared to the stories I read in the forum, but certainly some of the patterns described apply to some extent to myslef... probably to everyone. In any case it was really interesting to see her philosophy concerning emotional eating. She engages (herself and her patients) in rituals/excercises to separate the emotional 'child mind' from the 'higher mind' in order to gain self control and objectivity. Fascinating stuff. She does hypnosis and wrote a book called 'Sugar...the Hidden Eating Disorder & How to Lick It'.

Here are some excerpts from her posts.

In response to a post about a binge:

"There is a part of you that is balking at the idea of discipline. You're not seeing it as a key to freedom, instead of a burden. In other words, you haven't fallen in love with the "right thing."

Everything we do for ourselves needs to be from our "higher self." If you believe in a Higher Power, then you can image your "higher self" as connected to your Higher Power. Your desire is to please that power, as well as to honor the same things. In this instance, that thing is Higher Health.

You began your day disconnected from your power. You know what to eat, but the child-emotions insisted on having their way. You need a good amount of food & we've discussed that.

Next, when you went to the store, you didn't stop the purchase. I'm wondering if you had "thoughts" before finding yourself standing in front of the pie. I tend to think you did......... you may not have been attentive to them, but I would be surprised if they weren't there. But let's suppose that they weren't there, or you were asleep for them.........the minute you found yourself in front of the pie, was the time when you needed to connect up to that higher part of yourself & then allowing that part to teach & remove the child. It takes a big of practice, but this is what is needed.

I ask my clients, students & myself to disallow any & all references including thoughts, etc. related to foods or beverages that are not part of our plan. I mentioned in an earlier post that I don't believe in abstinence, but deciding what gets purchased & then eaten & when. This is discipline & it is key to health & happiness."

There are religious overtones, a la 12-Step Program, which I guess is appropriate when dealing with addictions.

Another post:

"All it takes is for me to have an unwelcomed thought & I answer it with a special sound, rather like the Dog Whisperer uses.....schtt....! I know what it looks like, but it doesn't sound like that...lol, but it could. That sound trigger works very well & my child-self jumps to attention.

Decide what you want....set the mind programs......& practice. If you want to practice with some affirmations, go to a website called publishersmarketplace.com & click on my blog. It's called thoughtWARE."

I like all her references to the Dog Whisperer! LOL that just kills me.

Yesterday: 1300 calories, but poorly distributed - i had a huuge lunch so ended up feeling gross.
no exercise

this morning i did weights: back, butt (using the multi-hip machine), roman chair abs and 20 minutes of elliptical

yesterday: 1400 calories
one hour step class

back to normal -- feels much better. M came over last night and I slept like forever. I took a 3 hour nap yesterday and last night I must have slept for 10 hours at least. Fuck yeah!!!

Fat Tuesday, seriously. Nothing celebratory, just sugaring out as I finished my paper. It's done! Aughhh yesssss. Submitted, copyright approved, done done DONE!

Yesterday: 2200 calories (yuck.)
25 minutes cardio

Monday: 1600 calories
no exercise

This morning I went to a step class and feel much less stressed out. Today I can pretty much chill with Penny and get work done at home.

Yesterday: 1400 calories
30 minutes elliptical, plus back (pull-up, incline row, standing row)

still not done with paper o__0

must finish and send to coauthor sometime today.... hopefully i'll finish this fucker before the afternoon. looking FORWARD to gym to let off steam.

pennyface

Penny! this is my pup Penelope

yesterday: 1100 calories.
good!

depite my Valentine's Day transgression, I still managed to lose a bit this week. got on the mechanical scale at the gym this morning and, with workout clothes and sneakers on, I got 133.5. So - I'll take that as 133 w/o clothes.

Just joined a challenge on sparks to lose 5lbs in a month - Feb 26th - March 26th.

OK, now that I'm on track with my body, I need to get on top of things with my brain, i.e. knock out this paper this weekend.

This morning: one-hour step class

i got a puppy! 13 week old pomeranian. i named her penny (penelope). she's tiiiinnnnyyyy.

yesterday: 1400
exercise? cuddling.

Uggghhuhhuchh. staying within my calorie range was hard today. Stressed out. Had no time to work out this morning and it had to wait til tonight, but when i got out of class at 6:30 and drove to the gym the was no parking anywhere - i circled forever, then went and got a massage.

I am BLOATED. It's my "special" "lady" "time". Bllllleehhhhuuujjhfdf.

Today: 1500
no exercise

Me and M went out to a French Vietnemese place for V-day dinner - I had fresh veggie rolls and sole, and it was really excellent. I only ate half of the entree, but had two glasses of wine... I knew I was going to go over but the wine was really great.

I discovered poached pears! OMG the pear I had for dessert blew my mind - it was coated in an anise-flavored wine reduction and it was amazing. M's 'molten' chocolate cake didn't even look molten, just like a dried up mini-bundt chocolate cake. I was like - wow, i was expecting a let-down but the pear totally kicked the chocolate cake's ass!


Yesterday: 2100


I'm so stressed out about this paper that I have to submit on Tuesday. I have to be done by Monday to let my co-author/boss review it. Grah! Plus I am supposed to be already done with this other crappy little project for my internship, and the extended deadline for me is tomorrow. It's one of those time-consuming thoughtless tasks and fuck, I do not have time for that crap right now. !@#$!%#$%

i had gotten a white cotton corset in early Jan, before I started really focusing on my diet, and now it's too big for me.
:)
ok, enough gloating. i'm going to a get some work done before a step class at 9.

so after i ate sweets at the coffe hour, i felt sort of gross. got that creepy feeling like I could feel the fat growing back on my legs. totally ridiculous, that 300 calories of sugar would do anything much, but... after that i was so busy with work that i skipped dinner and went to the gym.

i did weights: biceps, triceps, lunges, multi-hip (back and side) and roman chair abs
then 30 minutes of elliptical intervals

by the time i got home i was not really so hungry and just tired. plus our kitchen is completely trashed from last night. just disgusting.
but, anywho, yay for keepin it in check!

Today: 1200 calories

crap! i just went to a coffee hour thing and had just a couple little sweets and some coffee-mate in my coffee. i came back and sparkpeopled it and, using a low estimate, what i had was 300 cals there. up to 1200 cals already! damn meringues!!

last night i came home after going to yoga and i had forgotten my housemate was having a party. i was sooo gross, because i was coming from bikram yoga and sweaty and disgusting, so it was somewhat embarrassing but people almost didn't even notice - i just slipped by. plus they had been drinking since 6 and it was 10pm! neuroscience recruiting party.

i had a glass of wine and a little bread but did not try to catch up to these people. it was fun after i cleaned myself up. :)

Yesterday: 1400 calories
cardio in the morning and yoga at night